Inspired by Morna

5 Things:
1. There is one person I was convinced was crazy. Apparently he thinks the same about me.
2. I'm getting worse at keeping in touch with people and telling them what's going on. I used to have the opposite problem.
3. Just found out that "brain" in the urban dictionary means a blowjob. So me saying "I can't brain today" was just made five times funnier.
4. Whale of mass destruction
5. It's all too tempting to stay home tomorrow and just draw. And I know I can't.

.raw with love.

little dark girl with
kind eyes
when it comes time to
use the knife
I won't flinch and
I won't blame
you,
as I drive along the shore alone
as the palms wave,
the ugly heavy palms,
as the living does not arrive
as the dead do not leave,
I won't blame you,
instead
I will remember the kisses
our lips raw with love
and how you gave me
everything you had
and how I
offered you what was left of
me,
and I will remember your small room
the feel of you
the light in the window
your records
your books
our morning coffee
our noons our nights
our bodies spilled together
sleeping
the tiny flowing currents
immediate and forever
your leg my leg
your arm my arm
your smile and the warmth
of you
who made me laugh
again.
little dark girl with kind eyes
you have no
knife. the knife is
mine and I won't use it
yet.
- c.b.

Thanks Jacob

What's funny is during my freshman year at California College of the Arts, I was required to remake a chair, or to create a functional or non functional chair.
This is awesome.

To all of you delinquents out there, or just those who have been caught

My friend shouldn't have ever shown me this link.

Apple-Squash Hash, vegan and awesome

Apple-Squash Hash

1 jar of San Antonio Farms Chipotle Salsa (or your favorite salsa)
2 Fuji apples (or some kind of sweet apple)
2-3 yellow squash/zucchini
lime juice
olive oil


if you want
-add some Sriacha hot sauce for some extra kick
-half of a diced yellow onion (the salsa should have plenty, though)

Dice the two apples and squash and mix together in a bowl.

Put the apples and squash into a skillet coated with olive oil and put on with a low flame
Add enough salsa to mix evenly with the apples and squash, stirring occasionally so the squash and apples cook evenly.
Add lime juice to taste

Serves 2-3

Good for a side dish or just over rice.

Wingnut Presents: APE 09

I've made it through my surgery well enough. I found out I have a high enough pain tolerance that I scared a couple of the nurses, especially when they messed up with the IV three times in a row; I was joking around about how I was scared of syringes the whole time, ha.
They removed scar tissue from the left part of my pelvic wall. I also got some lovely candid snapshots of my appendix, liver and uterus. I'm officially diagnosed with endometriosis (fucking duh, thanks Sparky), but my gyno (i.e. mentally I call him Sparky because the genius came by with my results just as I had woken up from the anesthetic ... I think that's part of the curriculum of medical school) wants to start me on a regiment of hormone killers just to make sure. I'm reluctant to mess around with shutting down any of my systems, let alone one that has been so troublesome to both sides of my family. Supposedly there's no long term effects, and that it would only be for 3-4 months. I say not right now, if at all.

Reality didn't kick in until I actually went to look at the rates for Alternative Press Expo in October. It's a month sooner this year than it was last year. Last year I pushed it to the absolute last minute, and ended up producing something that I was less than satisfied with. It's weird to actually put this thought out there, or to even contemplate this: but I feel like everything is falling into place, and that this downtime is the perfect oppurtunity for me to produce something that I can be happy with and want to share with other people.

Let the games begin.

Baby shower present

Present for my friends' baby shower. I couldn't scan it before I framed it, so this is a closer detail.
My surgery is on Monday.